Lately, I've been hearing a lot of comments kind of mocking authors who write for the money and it's been bothering me.
First of all, I realize that authors make very little. I've been writing full time for over two years now and how much have I made in total from it? Zero dollars. And even if I do sell, as I've heard multiple times, it's very unlikely that I will make enough to live off of. Trying to make a living off of writing like I am? It's even more unrealistic, according to most people, than trying to make a living as an actor or actress.
But at the moment? I don't care. I'm going to try to anyway. Why? Because I watched too many corny movies growing up about getting a job doing what you love and writing (also editing as well would be fun to me) is my passion. It's the one thing I can do every day and enjoy. I'm very motivated.
But I do need to eat and to have a place to live, so I'm hoping that eventually I can get paid to do what I love the most full time or there's a good chance I might have to give it up for the most part. That would make me very sad.
I'm an introvert. While I would like people to read the things I've written, it also slightly terrifies me. Most authors have a lot of trouble dealing with the fact that writing is a very lonely process. You're putting a whole lot of work into something (for months or maybe even years) that no one else in the world is going to see until you are done. Me? I can actually handle that part pretty well.
So while I would greatly enjoy having people read the things I write, I relate to it kind of like how I relate to this blog. Few people read it and very few comment on it, but I keep going because I enjoy it and hope to make a living through it someday. Is that so bad to dream about? Is this really such a bad way to relate to writing? I, personally, do not think so.